So this is me

I believe in the power of the law of supply and demand. If you took basic economics in college you would definitely be familiar with this concept.

Hung out with a couple of college friends last night, with Karen. I truly realized how old we were getting and I'm not liking it. Some of us are taking up law, some are working, some still waiting on jobs, and one even teaching. So what's happened to me? Well, not so much since college.

I work. But i don't know if this is really the path i want to take. Still eat a lot, drink sometimes. Surviving with my tiny bladder, hair that won't fall just right, and extreme aversion to horror anything. It's just like college me, only this time I'm working.

Is this where I thought I'd be at 21? Definitely not. Am i happy about it? I'll get back to you on that.

Sometimes I wish i could just erase my past and start off with a clean slate, but then I think how much those moments of happiness, hurt, anger, embarassment has shaped me into who I am today. That's when I smile and just shrug.

I need a hug.

Ok. So work is starting to feel like work. Great. I was having the time of my life enjoying what I did for a "living" when suddenly the job gods cracked down and made it tedious. How did they do that? Well, it started with a ban on games and sleeping at your station(even during your break). Then suddenly we found our folder of stress relievers empty. With no warning they deleted every song, every game, and every picture that our team amassed ever since its inception. We thought that would be the worst of it. Then they had to one-up their fun crackdown. Suddenly nowhere was safe. A guy, supposedly one of the bosses of bosses started going around checking what sites we were visiting. Manually. We know that there was someone who was monitoring our pc usage from somewhere, but this was different. He went around literally looking at what you were doing, asking you to open all the tabs of your browser and when it wasn't a work-related website, he'd ask you to write your name and apparently had it sent to the big bosses abroad. We don't know yet what would happen to those people he caught, just to say it won't be good. He actually told someone he would make it bad for him. Way to improve employer-employee relations.

I actually don't get the fun crackdown. It's not like you can fault the work that these guys have done over the duration they've worked there (I really can't say anything about me, i've barely started there). I just have to say that the other things we do during the workday doesn't really hinder the output of the work. Apparently the growth of the sales of the company urged them to make our work environment hostile? I don't know.

I guess I'm just sad at the way things work.

ice cream

What's your comfort food? I guess mine has always been ice cream. Probably coz my grandmother sold Magnolia ice cream in her store in the province and we always had all the ice cream we want. I have memories of stirring the ice cream cup until the ice cream turned into mush and drinking it. (Yes i was that disgusting) This unlimited ice cream has made me into an ice cream fiend and i can proudly say that i can finish a popsicle without a drop spilled i was that fast. And i could finish a pint of ice cream in one sitting. Well the second one i can still do.

It's so crappily cold here at my workstation. I have the doggone luck (note the sarcasm) to be situated at the station where one of the two aircons at our part of the office is directed at. Thus it is a must for me to bring a jacket every single day to work. Even if it's blazing hot outside I am here freezing my tush off. I think some of my officemates think that I wear my Socio jacket to show off or something. When really I'm not that proud I'm from Socio, I'm just happy i have a big jacket.

I hate that Unwrapped show. I love it too. I've watched the same ice cream unwrapped episode twice in a week and it's making me crazy for an ice cream anything. Have to wait till Saturday when I go out to have it. I wants a banana split or a sundae. Cafe Breton?

Luk Yuen

Shop we did at Greenhills last Sunday. Being the lazy butts we are, we don't go to Greenhills unless we have a car along, and that usually means my dad is along. He really didn't wanna go there, the day before even offering to drive me to work in the pouring rain if we didn't have to go to Greenhills. But ate and I were set to burn a little money. For me it was a bit therapeutic, going around shopping with actual people rather than my usual solo jaunts to the mall after work.

I was a bit annoyed that now, whenever my dad's along, he insists that my brother drive. I know he needs his practice but still i find myself a little jealous that he's getting all the privileges of driving, when i wasn't even offered lessons. He's 19 and I'm 21. Isn't it a bit backward to consider gender as a factor?

Nonetheless I was happy. I bought a few shirts and a jacket. And even if i promised myself i'd buy something more girlish, i found that i bought the same thing, collared shirts and a comfy jacket. Still have to buy flats though. For work. Can't exactly get away with wearing my flipflops everyday. I've been lucky not to have been caught yet but i don't want my luck to run out.

Had lunch at Luk Yuen. Fun. Chinese. Since it was still sort of raining i got a rainy day order, noodles. I noticed even though we all had different orders, everything had cabbage. So expect cabbage when you order meals here. Got our prerequisite, hakaw, and jason got a side order of spareribs to go with his bento meal thing. The weird thing was i enjoyed the house tea. I have originally abhorred hot tea. This time i had a couple of cups. It was probably the rain. Made me all hokey.

After an hour more of going around we went our way. Everyone was in a better mood after being fed so i urged them to go to Mrs. Howard's for dessert. Got a little nervous since i was the one they depended on for directions and i wasn't really sure of the way. Thankfully we didn't get lost and found the little nook. As for the place, it definitely was a little nook to spend a date in. Thank goodness there weren't a lot of people, so i got to take a lot of pictures around the place. We got a 6pack of cupcakes. Yum. But not as yummy as i expected. I really shouldn't go online and look at food blogs, i get disappointed at the real thing. Still. Good cupcakes. And will try the main dishes when i go back. When i date. Hahaha.

The chump who went to work

I am the chump who went to work while the smart people who aren't here are sleeping, eating, watching tv, basically enjoying their weekend. Even the music that's playing on my headset right now is mocking me "Good day sunshine" my shiny metal behind. The rain is falling softly outside and it's the perfect time to be a bum at home and where am I? At work. Just goes to show how much I like my work now. If this was my work before I'd definitely stay home and sleep. Yet it was really hard to get up from my bed and comforter and pillows and faithful pink spotted pig. Still i got up, took a bath and badgered my parents to take me to work. Wouldn't you know it, they dropped me off at the mrt. Still it's better than taking those two godawful jeep rides to work. (Those jeep rides are what i hate the most. They take the most time since the drivers always stop at every intersection to pick up passengers, but are actually the shortest distance.) Thank God rc took pity on this poor soul and picked me up from the mrt. We actually had a little problem meeting since i have a horrible sense of direction (Sorry rc.) but hehe finally met near chowking.

Am i the only one getting freaked out at the huge deals these "minor" storms are getting to be? Could this be an effect of global warming? Gone are the days when we laugh at storms for being weenie-ish. Now any low pressure area can kick the country's butt. I actually had a laugh at yesterday's Manila Bulletin headline in which Cardinal Rosales was quoted as saying "Stop prayers for rain." Well duh. Can he think of anyone in their right mind still praying for rain? (Well except for the students who don't wanna go to school)

Went to Gilligan's yesterday with officemates. Was supposed to hang out with the Tripod but they couldn't go, so hung out with the office peeps instead. I wonder if there are still people who think bad of a girl hanging out with all boys? Coz that's what's happening to me now. I hang out with three boys usually. They all have girlfriends so no worries. Well except for our supervisor but well, that's not an issue. Haha.

I am not a big fan of Gilligan's. I like Gerry's thank you very much. But their slammer was the best one we've had so far. Sweet, but traitorous. We all thought it was a weak drink, but after like five minutes were feeling its effects. We got home early since we still had work to go to the next day.

Had a McDonald's breakfast. Yum. I didn't realize i missed pancakes that much until i had them this morning. With the requisite sausage coz i need a balanced meal. Well balanced in the terms that i need a hit of salt with my sweet and vice versa. Otherwise I'll be craving for something else. Man was i full. I already ate a bit at home, but when they asked me if i wanted to get breakfast i went along since it felt freaky lonely in my station. First time i ate a real meal in my station so i kept glancing at the main office cubbies to see if anyone was approaching. Felt like a pig eating all that but a happy pig.

Way too much time on my hands

So this is my life. Home. Work. Home. (repeat from Tuesday to Saturday) And I'm bored. So you see when my friends ask me to go out it's all i can do not to jump for joy. And also to explain why almost any time my officemates go out I'm there. I'm bored out of my mind and I want to go out. Now that I have the time and the capacity and the freedom, other people are otherwise occupied.

I hate my conscience sometimes. It forces me to be a good person and i feel better for being a goody good sometimes. But the goody goods have no fun. At least not enough fun.

Went to Island Flavors yesterday with the usual office alcoholics, rc, isko and ren. We were already at Pier One but they started craving for that pizza so we got up to leave then headed to Island Flavors. Good good pizza. We had the Island supreme, in large. They had beers and I had a margarita. (such a chick) I really don't like beer. I wanted to like it since then since it'd make my life so much easier, and cheaper too, but i can't seem to stomach the taste of beer. It's cocktails for me.

Crunch time

Ok. So our team may be going to boracay in like two months. This is both good news and bad news since I want to go to the beach so much I can almost taste it, but then I'm going with my colleagues per se so I have to drop weight fast if i want to go home with my dignity. Haha.

But food is too fun. I may be going to Greenhills on the weekend and I'm hoping we get to try that conveyor belt sushi place Ma says is there. And I'm meeting the Tripod tomorrow. That means eating. So going to the beach and leaving my dignity there. Wonderful.

Went to get ice cream with several of my officemates after lunch earlier. Actually it was supposed to be a major dessert run, but after going around shangrila and realizing we weren't actually supposed to be there we just got some frozen yogurt cones from BTIC. As usual i got my favorite Mint Chip and they got like Bubble Gum, Pistachio, and Triple Chocolate. I love my mint chip yum! Thanks boss for the treat.

Loving (and hating) the rain

I am usually a big fan of the rain. I have, and still do, walked under the rain (when there's no lightning) for fun. I love the feeling of the drops hitting my skin. Since it never gets freezing here in our tropical country I have no fear of freezing something off.

Now I'm working I'm not loving the rain so much. Gone are the suspended classes where I'd go straight home and snuggle under my blanket and pillows. Now even if it's pouring out, I have to go to work. And since it's like an hour's commute to work on a normal day, it just makes the travel longer and wetter.

Pa got me pizza hut spaghetti for lunch today. Aww. Hehe. Papa has a friend who's a manager at Pizza Hut, thus he always has gift certificates or food for us. This may be the only restaurant he goes to that doesn't serve rice meals. There is one rule when taking my dad out to eat, there has to be rice there or he wouldn't like it.

Sister brought home brownies from Becky's and that is what I'm eating right now. I love their brownies. Although the ultimate brownie for me is my Tita Lita's brownies. They're the chewiest softest things that no one but her knows how to make. Just thinking about them is making my mouth water. Yumm...

I made champorado the other day. A little too late for the rain, but still i wanted some. I was craving that for a few days, but i didn't have the time for it. When i did have the time to make it, the setting wasn't so champorado-appropriate weather. In fact it was pretty hot. It wasn't my Tita Lita's champorado but since there was no breakfast, the people at home ate it.

Went to chocolate kiss for sunday lunch. Had our essential taho then headed to eat. I love Chocolate Kiss. It's in a little nook of UP. Just filled enough with people not to be scary at night, but not too crowded like mall food stops. Go here if you like pasta and cake. I love their blueberry cheesecake. Creamy but not too creamy. Yum.

We were so hungry we forgot to take pictures haha.

a change

I cut off my hair yesterday. Well, a little of it at least. After a few days of contemplating whether to get a trim or a totally different haircut, and not getting to go to the salon coz of the rain, I took matters into my own hands. Literally. Took mom's sewing scissors and cut bangs into one side of my face. Now I feel a bit awkward since i haven't had bangs since elementary school. Now I can't walk without brushing the bangs away from my face.



I love the rain, but only if i can stay home and lie down. To me that would be a wonderful day. Just lying down and watching dvds, maybe have a movie marathon or read. Crap was it hard to get going yesterday with the downpour.

A physical reaction

It used to be when I don't remember the face of someone, that would be the indication that i liked them. Not anymore. Recently it's been physical. I get a physical reaction to that person, and it usually shows. My heart beats faster and somehow louder, my voice gets squeaky, my knees get weak.

And the ultimate symptom, I don't usually get hungry when I'm with that person. So if ever you find out that i didn't eat a lot when going out with someone, even if it was for like the whole day, that would mean something fishy.

I just remembered because I just had a physical reaction.

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Went to watch a game last week with ate. First game i watched this UAAP season. I didn't really get into the game until the final quarter. UP hasn't had much luck recently, so games won yet for the Men's Senior Basketball Team (Methinks they miss marvin cruz as much as i do). They were actually leading the game the first few quarters, but in the end FEU won.

Watched The Simpsons Movie after. I loved it. I laughed out loud for most of it. And i even liked that Lisa had a little love interest thing going, even if i wish she'd pick Milhouse (Sue me, I like the underdog) in the end. I want donuts though.

As usual we headed to Teriyaki Boy for dinner. Tried a new thing, and strangely i didn't eat so much. Not even the tuna teriyaki sashimi that I missed. Oh well. Next time.

Songs and memories

I love to sing. I sing in the shower, walking around the house, on the way to work, at work (much to the dismay of the people around my station). It's not a big stretch that I use songs in relation to people. If you were, and are part of my (love) life, chances are i have a song for you. To this day hearing these songs reminds me of the people i've subconsciously connected them to. I will share these songs, but for respect for these people their names and incriminating details will not be revealed to my 2 readers. Wahaha.

Just to make things clear, these songs are not in chronological order:

1. She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5
Chosen for the guy who introduced me to the band. i loved the lines "Tap on my window knock on my door, i want to make you feel beautiful". A guy I never really thought had the capacity to hurt me, he won me over by being this guy who always took me home, even if it was a major hassle. Turned out, I wasn't the only girl he was trying to make feel beautiful.

2. My Favorite Mistake by Sheryl Crow
Favorite lines:
"It’s the perfect ending
To the bad day i’ve gotten used to spending
When you go all i know is
You’re my favorite mistake"
For he will always be my favorite mistake. The guy with the innocent face, but not so innocent life. He opened my eyes to the life of excess, not mine but his. I was warned he was bad news, but I didn't care. He shattered any illusions I had of good guys, and will continue to amaze me with his fast-paced life.

3. Breathless by The Corrs
It was my first date ever. This was playing in the background. I don't really have any favorite lines from this song, but it does make me chuckle when I think how crazy i was back then. He was the Popular Guy. I was the quiet girl on the sidelines. He made me feel special. He took care of me. I got to know him years after the infatuation ended. I realized it was good we were just friends.

4. Grow Old With You by Adam Sandler
Remember those days when guys used to sing over the phone? That's what mr. grow old with you did. I think he was a little tipsy then for I knew he was over at a friend's house. He wasn't really that type of guy, with smooth moves and lines galore. On the contrary, he was the guy with naturally good looks so that he didn't even need a personality, girls just ogled him. We became friends due to common networks. Due to extenuating circumstances we grew apart. I wonder where he is, but I'm a different person now, and there are some things I found out that would never make him be the person I thought he was before.

5. Move along by The All American Rejects
It was due to a freak coincidence that we met. I didn't like his past, especially since he had a present when I met him. Tried to stay away, and I did until he told me that the present was now the past. It was sad that all the relationships he was in were always overlapping. Although he will forever be the guy with the most effort. He tried to make my dreams come true, but it turns out, I wasn't the girl of his dreams. It turned into a nightmare, but I know he'll be all right. And he was. He moved along to the next girl I think in a month after we said goodbye. Good for him. I was really broken at the thought of hurting this person. And i was happy when i found out that he had healed.
Favorite lines:
"Move along just to make it through
Move along like I know you do"

6. Love Me For What I Am by The Carpenters
For the boy that made me feel bad about being myself in the end. Oh at first he made me feel like the most adored person in the world. I loved that he had old-fashioned values, also for someone older than me, he had a certain naivete that was the best part of him, he had ways of looking at the world that didn't match his cynicism in the end. It wasn't meant to be. We were too opposite in our views. I wish him all the best and proud of him for all that he has done. I also miss his mom.
Favorite lines: "If what you want isn’t natural for me,
I won’t pretend to keep you,
what I am I have to be.
The picture of perfection is only in your mind,
for all your expectations love can never be designed."

..................will continue soon. Yep. This is not the end.

A night out with Tripod and Ka

Haven't seen my peeps in a while, like two weeks? Haha. But yeah, I haven't been able to go the past few nights out with them on account of my schedule. Well anyway, I had to go somewhere yesterday afternoon so I took a half day off from work, thinking i had time to go home and freshen up before meeting them at Trinoma, but it took longer than I thought and in my hunger (and aversion to eating alone) I hopped a cab and went straight to Glorietta.

Since Ka and Martin had already eaten dinner they told me they'd just go with me wherever. Having no cravings and with a dead phone i just hurried them to Wendy's. I love this new thing they have of letting customers charge their (Nokia) phones. So i had my usual Bacon Mushroom Melt meal and charged my phone.

We walked for a while then met up with Pao and his friend then waited for like an hour to get a cab to Tomas Morato. Pao hadn't eaten dinner and Ka and I were jonesing for dessert, we hailed to Cafe Breton. In true lezlove style, Ka and I shared a split, and Ka ordered another split for the boys. Yum! I definitely definitely love their banana splits. My favorite so far.

It was still early and Karen (me too) didn't want to go home, so we went to Music Match. Sang our hearts out. Karen knew the Aegis song that Pao picked for us, it was a performance! Haha. We all sat googly-eyed at Karen for knowing that song.

The boys sang the usual songs (karen and i picked), Careless Whisper, The One You Love, Bailamos, Jumbo Hotdog. With choreo! It got so bad Joms raised his voice coz they could see us outside and that it was embarassing.

I'm happy.

slammer

I drink. I guess it's my father's influence. Haha kidding. My dad drinks, my mom used to drink, and as kids, they let us taste things here and there. Probably so we wouldn't drink somewhere else. And we didn't. For a while at least. Being the adolescent I am, i drank at other places, though i only started in college.


I got totally drunk once, after that i stopped when i felt the alcohol kicking in. I hated the hangover I got so i vowed never to drink again after that night, and I didn't. For two years i think. Now I'm a social drinker. I drink with friends, but I'm not actually after the alcohol but the company. I like the hangouts.

Anyway, about the slammer. Well, after work last tuesday, we (RC, Ren and Isko and me) went to Pier One, to get a drink. Isko was jonesing for alcohol for like the past few weeks and we just got our salary so we wanted to "celebrate"(even though they were disappointed they didn't get their bonuses). In 30 minutes we were all feeling out of our element. We had one shot called "slammer" which is supposed to be a mix of all these shots. It was like half a glass, but is guaranteed to get you drunk. They had beers afterwards. Me, not being a fan of the stuff, just drank an iced tea shake. We ate squid sisig(not so good) and a pizza (not a fan either), billed out then proceeded home. Haha.

Drunks. I was ok on the cab home, and i had like the best night's sleep in a while. Oh alcohol. :P

Sorely disappointed

I finally got to taste those cupcakes last sunday, my siblings and i went to SM North to watch Transformers, and I have to say, I was disappointed by both.

I think I expected too much. With the Transformers raves everyone who's watched it, and my own expectations of the cupcakes I've seen but not bought for the past few weeks.

Watched Transformers first. Good old SM, it was still showing there even after a month. We ate at Sbarro first though, i was hungry coz I didn't get to eat breakfast. Ordered what i always ordered, half spaghetti. At least that's what i order if there's no seafood primavera, which i love. Also went halfsies with ate for a white pizza. Ate was weird. She ate so little i had to finish for her. (Haha or so I say)

I did have fun watching Transformers though. We watched with like the 20 people left in QC who hasn't watched this movie. I loved Bumblebee. Megan Fox was pretty. So was Josh Duhamel. I really thought this was a Josh Duhamel movie, but it was pretty much a Shia LeBouf movie. Ate loved him. Haha.

We were supposed to go to Trinoma to get Krispy Kremes but we were too lazy and just got cupcakes. They were so pretty and i gingerly carried the box home. I even took pictures, but that was where the romance ended.

I took a bite and to my dismay found out that it had buttercream frosting. I am not a fan of buttercream frosting (I'm also not a bavarian donut fan, i do not like the vague butter taste, but that's another post). Tried to finish the thing, but ended up giving it to my brother, which ate did too. Bro was happy, i wasn't.

Gotta try Mrs. Howard's. Sonja's i wanna try too, but crap that's far away.

Still love Brownies unlimited though. For the brownies. Just the brownies.